summer is here

the sky is a beautiful bright blue,
birds are sweetly singing their happy little melodies,
white wisps of clouds drift lazily by,
a gentle breeze plays around my skin teasing me to come play.....
yet here i sit, lost,
unable to find joy in this day.
tears streak my face as i wander in and out of thoughts....
today i broke a promise,
not that i guess it matters...
but i never go back on my word...
where is the off switch?
I can't keep feeling this way...
Jesus christ!
Can't this just stop already!
just go the fuck away...
Move the fuck on with life!
The summer evening begging me to play,
yet all i am reminded of is the game that was played with my heart.
I don't want this god damn living hell anymore.
I don"t want to feel agony with each breath i forcefully pull into my lungs...
MOVE THE FUCK ON!!!!!!!!
like he did long ago.